I always have this feeling that I don't know how to love someone. that I am not capable of loving or caring a person.
Yes, I feel sad when I see a child on the street I see a child on the street, so dirty and you can really see it in their eyes their hunger for food and love and the pains they have suffered in life. But at the back of my mind I also get angry angry to their parents for being so stupid and not thinking of the consequences of their actions. I know it's not caring, it's just pity and I don't really do anything to help those kids thinking that those kids are under a syndicate. Or if I'm going to give them money, their parents would also continue to take advantage of the fact that there are still people who are kind hearted to their children to give them some money.
Aside from that, I am also having a hard time showing my sympathy and care to other people when they're sick or when they're sad. I don't know how to react to those situation. But I know that I can give a good advice to other people and offer any help if I could.
I don't know how to show my love and affection to the people who are close to me and to my family. I admit it, I am selfish. Who's not? (Aside from the saints of course.) Maybe this is one of the reason why I don't have a lot of friends. Because they can see in me that I am not a compassionate person. But if I want to, sometimes, I can be a very sweet person. Hehehehe!