Thursday, March 31, 2011

True Calling

I've been experiencing both ups and downs of my life this past few months.  I have experienced not doing much in work and still I've been payed for that.  Then the worst of that, I've been promoted.  And yet, I can't really feel that I've grown as a programmer.  I never really learned a lot with the almost three years that I've worked.

After I have been promoted, I've been given so much work which made me grateful, for now I can feel that I am needed.  But it is also the reason why I always get so frustrated and disappointed.  It is also the reason why I am starting to ask myself whether I should be a programmer or should I wake up and just face the reality that my calling is not here.

I'm confused and afraid.  I want to find that something that could really make me say "this is my dream, this is what I want to do till I grow old".  And yet, I also don't want to step out of my comfort zone.  I want to continue doing what I am doing right now so that I won't put my life in chaos and also to do another stuff that could also make me really happy.

Wish I could smile again just like a child does.  Wish I could be just like a child again, so innocent and pure.  Wish I could be like a child again, who has nothing to worry about.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Let's Get Physical

For the past months, I've been very active in running(fun run,jogging), badminton,basketball,badminton and pop jazz.  Even if I was very busy at work and with those stuffs, I never really got sick.  But after the fire run that we have participated, me, Retchel and Bryan never found a time again to meet for a jogging or what.  I am now just working full-time.  Because of this, my immune system got weak.  I got colds and cough.  boohoo! 

Bry, Chel...Jogging nata ug sayaw2x ug mag badminton...  Hehehehe!

Monday, March 28, 2011


I told bhe2x jaydee earlier that I want to go on a picnic with him.  That I will cook for him for the said picnic.  He already said yes.  The problem now is that, I don't know what would I cook.

Earlier, I was thinking of making sandwiches, cook fried chicken and spaghetti.  But now, I'm not sure anymore. :(  The only thing I know is that I want to spend more time with him now before he will go to Bohol to work.