I was reading Bedroom blog by Veronica in cosmo.ph, and she narrated her high school days on her blog. I then beginning to reminisce those days when I was still in high school. But sad to say, yes there were also happy moments but most of them were sad and painful.
I can still remember I was one of the few students who were being bullied by those girls who have their own clique and were popular. They would give me a mean look everytime I don't succumb to their every wish to make them copy my assignments or during exams. I was also one of those girls who only have little friends because I was not cool enough to be in a group. Yes I admit it, I was a nerd back then up until now. I won't deny it. Because that's who I am.
I had also had a few friends back in high school. But unlike the others, whom they still communicate until now. The connection with those so called friends that I had just cut-off right after graduation day. I don't know if I was at fault or the universe just doesn't want me to have a normal teenage life.
I was always inside the library or inside the classroom reading a book during lunch time while the others were making chikka and playing outside. After class, I always go straight home just like my parents asked me to do. I wonder, if I spent those lunch times and after class hours making friends with my classmates and schoolmates, would I have earned more friends and have gotten a true friend?
I think not. People usually are having a hard time entering my world. And sometimes I am also having a hard time to relate to other people. So far, I can only count those people that I considered my true friend, just like how easy I can count the fingers on my hands.