Cabanday Clan Christmas Party

This morning, I texted all my cousins which I have a number in my mother side as to what they want us to do on Christmas day.  My sister texted back that we should have an exchange gift.  Evee and Celine replied that they want us to play Pinoy Henyo.  After a few hours and many text message that we have sent out and received, we then decided that we will have the following activities.

• Exchange Gift worth 100 pesos
• Pinoy Henyo
• Charades
• Videoke

I assigned Evee to make the props for the Pinoy Henyo.  I will be the one to buy the prizes.  Of course i will ask a little monetary contribution from them, but I am planning that i will shoulder the prizes.  That will be my gift to all of them.  Hehehehe!

Evee mentioned to me that she is already excited for that day.  It will be another happy get together.  Weeeehhh!

I came up with the idea to text them first and organize the activity since nobody initiated it.  I also don't want that the people will get bored again, like last year.  After we ate our lunch, received our gifts from our Tito's and Tita's, we did not know what to do.  So we just went to SM without knowing what to do there.  It was really boring.  Hopefully, this year, it will be a blast.  But even if it will not be, the best part of it will be that we will get together on that day happily.

i need a power hug...

Everyday, a newsletter from Chicken Soup for the Soul will be sent on my yahoo email address.  One time, I received a newsletter from them, which narrates a story about a boy who likes to make people happy.  One day, they went to the hospital to help and to visit the patients.  As they were walking in the corridor, they passed by a room, inside the room was a woman sitting on her bed.  When the little boy saw the woman, he came inside the room and hug her.  The woman began to cry when the boy hug her.  Upon realizing it, the boy asked her teacher why was the woman crying, and if he did something wrong.  His teacher asked him if the reason as to why he hug the woman.  The boy told her teacher that, when she saw the woman, he felt that the woman needed a hug thus, the reason why he went inside the room and hug her.  Upon hearing the boy's reason, the teacher calmed the boy and told him that the woman felt Jesus' embrace through him.

How I wish I could also receive a hug today. 

Happy Birthday Chel!!!

We were classmates back in college.  We were on the same block on my first year and first semester in USJ-R.  We never really became close or even friends back then.  She has her own set of friends while I've got mine too.  My first impression of her?  She was suplada.  I found out later, that was kinda her first impression to me too.  Nyahehehehe!  I never really thought that we could be close friends.

I can't really remember how it all began.  All I can recall was we were classmates in one or almost all subjects when we were already in our second year in college.  From then on, we were inseparable.  Some of our friends would usually comment that we have our own world.  Nyahehehe!  And that is also what we observed.  What the other is thinking, the other one can then catch up.  Parang sina B1 at B2.  Hehehe!

Retchel is not just my best friend.  She is also like my sister.  She is the one I make kulit when I am bored.  She is one of the few people I make chika with when I am happy or sad.  She is the first person I talk to when I have a problem.  I am really thankful, that I met her.  Life without her would be sad and lonely.  I remember three months ago, when I confided to her something.  The first thing I told her was.  "Please don't judge me.  Please don't get mad at me.  Please don't leave me because it's the last thing I want to happen."

We don't really see each other that much this days.  Since, we're both busy.  But distance will never be a hindrance on our relationship.  When we have the chance to hang-out, walang katapusang chikahan ang mahitabo jud, so that we can catch up in what is happening in our lives.  Hehehehe!

On this very special day for her, all I pray is that she will be continually blessed by God.  That she will always be happy, will find joy and stay beautiful and healthy.

Happy Birthday Chel... I Love You... MMMMMWAAAAHHHUUGGZZZ...

one boring Sunday

Yesterday, when I wake up, I found out that I was the only one left in the house. :(  My sister went to work while my brother, my mother and father went to my brother's school for their family day.  So it was just me and Cody boy.  Hehehe!

I got very bored just watching TV at home so after I took a bath and got ready, I decided to go to colon at around 12noon to look for an outfit that I will wear on our Christmas party this Saturday.  After I found the clothes, I then went to the school supplies side and men's apparel side to buy the fabric paint and plain shirt.

I thought to just spend the afternoon hand painting on the shirts.  Hand painting on it really help in taking the boredom out of me.  I finished the shirts in time for my family to come back.

unrequited love

sometimes i don't know why i bother to love, when i know for, that it will always be the same story.  chasing a heart that will never be mine.  begging for affection that will never be given.  sacrificing for a doubtful future.  and crying for the one who will never love me back.  i am starting to wonder, could i have been wrong in risking my heart to the man who couldn't give his heart to me? when would be the right time to say that i already had enough? 

Hitch ko!!!

Just awhile ago, Kring2x asked me if I have already seen her plan trip next year and on what trip I wanted to go.  When I checked her list on her blog, I immediately answered her with "Pwede sa tanan ko mokuyog except sa Singapore?".  Nyahahahaha! 

Here's Kring2x's travel plan for next year.  I hope I'll have the money for this... Hehehehe...
1. Siquijor – January 21 – 23
2. Baguio, Tagaytay – April 28 – May 1
3. Iloilo City – October 26 – 28
5. Bacolod City – November 30 – December 2

I Never Thought I'm That Special to YOU

When I asked my previous boyfriend of almost five years, Jaydee that I wanted to break up with him, I almost beg him that he would say yes.  I know he did not understand my reasons, because even me, I did not know if I really wanted to break up with him at that time.  I did not ask him to let me go not because I did not love him anymore.  Because I still do.  One reason why I ask him to do that was because I got tired.  I got tired of always waiting and I got tired of always understanding.  I guess, I didn't love him enough for me to be more patient and understanding for him.  Or maybe because I'm not the type of girl who just sit in the corner and wait.  I was selfish, I know.  He showed me how much he loves me, he gave me everything that he know that I might need, want and love.  But I was not contented with that.  I was always asking him with more.  More effort, more love.  I was always complaining.  I was blinded by my complaints about him.  I did not see how much he really loves me.  All I knew at that time was, he did not have time for me, his love was just shown in material things.

When I asked him of my freedom, it was on the first day of September, 25days before his birthday and 24 days before our monthsary and 54 days before our 5 year celebration.  I did not see it as that, what I saw was I wanted to break up with him, right then and there.  He cried and beg so that I won't leave him and  that he would change, but I did not listen to him.  The more he begged, the more I realized that he should let me go.  After that heartbreaking and nerve wracking moment, he then game me what I want.  Honestly, I was really happy when he did that, but a part of me was afraid.  Afraid of what would be my life without him.  But I was determined, I wanted to be more independent.  To face the world without clinging to him.  So I broke his heart.

Even though we break up, we agreed that we would remain friends with each other.  We still communicate with each other and update each one of us on what is happening in our separate lives.  He asked me, if I could accompany him to Sumilon Island in time for his birthday so that we could still celebrate it together.  I accepted his invitation, it's the least I could do to him and that's the only thing I know that could make him happy on his birthday.  I know no amount of material things could exchange that feeling.

Days before his birthday, I got very busy with work, that I did not have the luxury of time to scour the mall for a possible gift.  And I really did not have any gift idea in mind that he might really like.  So on the day we went to Sumilon, a day before his birthday, I still did not have a gift for him.  So I just told him that my presence and my company will be my gift for him.  We enjoyed the food and the place.  Little did I know, earlier, he asked the staff there to setup a candle-light dinner over looking to the beach for the two of us.(it was dark, so we can't really see the beach)  I was really surprised.  It was the first time that somebody did that to me.  I never really expected him to do that, since, it was his birthday.  So, it was his day.  It was supposed to be him who should be getting surprises on that day.  But no, instead of receiving, he was giving.  He showed me how special I am to him.  Without hesitations, he showed me how much he loves me.

I am really thankful that I have met him, that he came into my life.  For showing me that I am important.  That I am valued.  For showing me how to love unconditionally and without hesitations.  He will always have a special place in my heart.  He will always be bhe2x Jaybear.